Made it

Made it through yesterday. Friends called me to go to a cityfair. The kids enjoyed it, me too.
Music wasn't a big thing, but food was good and so was the mood.
Coming home I send the kids to sleep and poured myself a drink. Will have finished that bottle soon.
Don't worry, won't buy another one...

Still none who is coming to take me by the hand.
Think I have to do it again myself.
Big girl! You will make it!
Yeah, only to fall back into the abyss again.
No, it will last longer this time.
Well, once you know the abyss is there, you start to lose Balance.
There is a huge plain to walk on securely. No need to go even near the rim.
Something allways pushes me there. And the plain seems to shrink as well, so I find myself there again and again and again and again and ...

What? Is somebody talking to me? I hear faint voices. The kids? Oh, right, food, they need to eat...
What again is a garden? Trees? Birds? You'r supposed to hear them, right? Silence!
Don't you know the sound that darkness makes?
Food for the children. Yes,dear, go watch TV. Yes, I drive you to your friends place. Turn the radio on, sure. The news? News about what? War in Africa? Poor people there. Poor people in Somalia. Poor indigenous people in the US and Canada. Injustice, crimes commited by one community against another. Ignorance!
Ignorance! IGNORANCE! IGNORANCE!

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