This is

a text about asking and not wanting that people would notice. Try to cry for no reason without tears.
Silently screaming, hoping that somebody does not hear. Listen they can not, because there is no subject to listen to.
Where do I go now?

Satisfaction

Whow, we made it,and again crashed into each other. Unforeseen. With a naive notion...
What about trust? If one trusts onother, can he/she be offended by words, that come out in a burst out of emotions?
I didn't drink enough to make myself clear, will try again tomorrow.....

If the sun is shining...

... life seems to be so much more.
So much more to life - a blast of sunshine...

What I am talking about?
I talk about the struggle to keep on living with all what we know. The pains, the tears, the cruelties, the sufferings, the desperation.
How do some endure and still live?
I have difficulties with that, I must admit.

Seeking people who understand, who give me a hint or two how to keep on going.
Does this sound desperate?
Does it?

Seek. Seek. Look. Look. Search. Search. Seek. Search.......... Look..... Seek.....Sea.r.c....h.......S..e........e........k.....................................................

Just as it is...

Now they are fighting again against each other in the name of god. Why are they using his name for such a terrible result.
Is there a god as they want him to be like?
Or a godess?
No. At least not the way the want him to be.
They would be amazed how similar he is to each of us. How close, how identical.
Amazed or shocked?
It would mean we ARE responsible.
Are we?
Oh yes, we are!
YES! WE! ARE!
Kisses to all who are reading this. That will save me lot of kisses...

People are

growing fast, looking out of their head, through eyes. It is a very indirect way of seeing.
Growing and seeing some of this world. Understanding is done by comparing...?
Or how would one of you explain how that works?
Understand. Seeing and comparing.
How do these things fit together. Or do they not fit together at all?
In that sense understanding would be again filtered, again only a tiny part of the thing we are looking at.
Can everybody follow?
Nothing really new, isn't it. Millions of smart people already were more or less successfuly trying to think these thoughts...

Maybe it is better I lose this one like the yesterdays one.

Whoever wants to say something, be aware, your eyes are looking, your brain is seeing and your mind is the one with a chance to understand.
So mind the mind!

Left again...

Wrote a looong post today, loads of talks and it got lost while puplishing....
So I can't share my thoughts today. It is propably better that way. There is always a reason.

Yesterday my car saved my life...
On the road:
I was about to abundan everything and suddenly it beeeped and the display displayed a capital letter written "STOP".
The coolant was to be looked after. Temperature 130 degree celsius (100 boils).
I stopped, got out and checked the water.... Still enough, not even steaming... Got back in the car, temperatur was down. I drove another 100 miles without problems.

They arrived ...

... and I closed my door.
No, I did not.
Again I try to be a good girl, the one everybody can rely on. Only if I rely the wall is backing of...
No. It is not.

There are two topics:

How is the thing without beeing seen.
Pure reception.

And then is there another thing:
How do we let the kids look at the Puffin?

And again...

... wuerg, argh, urgh...

I do not try to seek the creator, not even the creation. It's all there and visible and I wonder what reason there is to talk about it.
If we wouldn't know all the thoughts from religious works, how would we look at this world today?
I mean, starting all over again, from zero.

See a Puffin and see it, really. I mean only that puffin.
Does everybody here knows what a Puffin is? Click HERE
Is it still possible for us to set aside all the prejudices that we have because of written books?
What about our own experience?
Are we still able to make such an experience, to gather it?
To draw own conclusions, insights?

Aechz! arrgh! ouph! Air is out and I take a break.

Good morning?

Peopel will be coming that I love and fear without reason. The kids are the precious judges. They know by heart what is important. Leave the past, enjoy the present.
And what about the future?
It will be love that will make the difference. Only love can make me enjoying the present.
Does it make sense?
To me at least it does - at the present...

Ahhh! This is the real pain... Do not forget to note it, because afterwards nobody will believe you anymore.
How can it be, that people are so sad although nobody likes this feeling.

This is a complete nonsense...

I can not imagine what will happen to those who actually read these posts...

Propably it did not help to drink a whiskey while writing.
I do not try to seek the creator, not even the creation. It's all there and visible and I wonder what reason there is to talk about it.
If we wouldn't know all the thoughts from religious works, how would we look at this world today?
I mean, starting all over again, from zero.